Insomnia, we meet again!

Dear insomnia,

You have been a part of me for so many years. We’ve had some interesting moments, you and I. Fun moments. Good moments. But also bad and exhausting moments. Whenever there was a pile of work stacking up, you would be there to push me through those late hours so that I would make the deadline. Whenever there was a marathon of my favorite TV show or a live streaming of a concert I wanted to see, you were there with me.  I guess I do have a lot to thank you for.

What I am about to share with you might come across as shocking, but I must confess this to you now. I feel that our relationship has finally pushed me to a limit. This never ending dance we do each night is taking the best of me. Things have gone too far for far too long.

Please do not take this the wrong way, but I do not know how to bring this to you in any other way. Let me just be blunt here: This on-and-off situation you and I have is unhealthy. It is toxic. For the passed months, it feels like you are suffocating me with your ongoing presence. Because of you, I am not able to function as a somewhat living being anymore during the day. You honestly are sucking the life out of me. I really think it would be best for the both of us if we would take some time apart. Preferably for good.

I know what you’re response will be. Yes I have tried to break up with you before and yes I have crawled back to you before. But no more I say, no more!  I really do not need you to be there every single night, keeping me awake until the next morning. Darned, you are even keeping me awake right this moment, so that I can write this down for you. I really cannot take it anymore! For the love of all that is lovable and holy, let us end this now. I do not wish to dance your never ending dance with you any longer. You and I are through.

Oh and by the way, I know about the others you have been dancing your never ending dance with. Hopefully, they too will come to their senses and realize that any moment spend with you is a waste of time and energy. You’re best bet is to just stay away from any given soul and stop existing completely. What a wonderful world it would be when that day would come!

Now, if you would excuse me; I have a date with this brand new pillow. Yes, I have already moved on.



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