There’s this awkward group of friends that I hang out with sometimes. We live in the same town and get together every other week. Sometimes we don’t see each other for weeks because we are all 30 somethings and have busy lives. Some of us are married. Others are single and with a job. It’s always fun to hang out with them. I’ve known these people for more than 10 years.
We used to be part of a much larger group of friends. But, you know how it goes; People grown older, move away and some of them you will never see again. I myself was hanging out less with most of those friends because I was having a long term relationship with the biggest mistake of my life. If there’s one thing I’ve learned in that period of my life it’s that; Everyone has their own pile of crap to go through and it’s rare when one wants to deal with your crap too. The only one willing to deal with my crap, even when I somehow kept tumbling back in that same puddle every now and then, is God. His faithfulness and love never fails.
Just a few of the awkward group of friends remained. When we get together, we usually just watch a movie at the cinemas. And otherwise we hang out at one of my guy friend’s house and watch a movie there. I prefer hanging out at his place more for some reason.
At first it was kind of weird to hang out at his place again. Especially since one of my other friends kept saying how he and I both are single and would make a perfect match. The others don’t know that I used to hang out with this guy often when I was in a long term relationship with the biggest mistake of my life… Let’s just say it was a really strange phase in life that I was going through. I can hardly remember everything of that time. One thing I am almost certain of, is that nothing ever happened between this friend and I. But there was always this vibe…
That awkward vibe still lingers. Every now and then it’s stronger whenever we’re together. When we’re alone it gets worse. But neither of us ever dared to speak of it or act on it. Maybe it’s because I’m misreading things. Maybe it’s because we don’t want to ruin the weird friendship. Maybe. So many maybes.